I went to RaeKai today. A few days ago I went into practice. I had hope to just practice. I had not seen Watashe Sensei in a while there on Thursdays. That was his regular time but he had been out. I went in on Thus. Just hoping to practice. I was starting to get a fix on things, having Sensei watching and adjust is good, but really confuses me at times.
So yeah of course he was there this Thursday. He and another sensei who is very helpful to me, but always checking me, adjusting. It is great but at the same time frustrating! Sadness within Joy Zen, sort of thing. Yeah, good to get correction and that someone cares, but bad for my just want to practice mode. Oh well life is change, roll with it.
Sensei did not stay long, neither did. I got my adjusts and got to practice so it was all good. My score sucked of course, but it is not about that, right!
So I got in some just practice time which was nice. It also confirms that some of new things I have been doing are correct. So I am in the right path! Yatta!
Tenouchi is a problem, I am lacking spin. I am hitting in a good spot off the mato, that if I have some spin that would not happen. It would hit I believe. Anyway, yeah more practice…and more after that.
I went a Rae Kai today it was fun. I had not been in a while , seemed like longer but I know I was just at something or another recently. No matter. I was there for a practice session, not to try to win. Just a progress check of sorts.
It was to see good some people, a couple of my regular buds were not there. It happens, life is like that. It was a good checking platform for me. I did not do great, or even good, but, I did not suck … too bad. Hahaha.
I have been studying Shakuhachi seriously over the last 3 yrs, from time to time I wonder which is more difficult? At this point I would at Kyudo, with out a doubt. With shakuhachi there is breath, fingering, lip aperture . With Kyudo there is everything , body, breath, mind, although I could break it all down to the base for both Body, breath , mind. “The body”, in Kyudo is much more vast. Also If one thing, shoulder, elbow, waist, etc are wrong, they are all wrong!
So Kyudo today was, ok. I again got to see my faults, and weakness. Always a good thing, when one wants to progress, but not to good for the ego. So more much training, which is nothing I did not expect. The next Shinsa is in June, maybe maybe maybe, I will give it a shot, just because I can, for practice…Perhaps Sept at my home dojo is better. No matter right now. I will see how things unfold over the next month. Then I will know. At least I feel I am making some progress. I am seeing that the more I am in the aligned position with everything, not just yumi, ya, arms, back, shoulders, etc, the better the shot is. I figured out something with my back the other day, when carrying my bass, the arch, the shoulder compress that is needed when shooting. The weight was starting to get to my back, but if I realigned everything so the the bones structure is supporting itself, the weight of the Bass is taken up by the “Bones” not the muscles, like what it says the Kyudohon how a shot should be done. Breath and alignment, there is the same thing in Shakuhachi, and Kung Fu. More subtle in Shakuhachi, but there and important, especially the breath part.
In Aug we will have been in this area for five years. Our rent is being raised! Not good, but the point is , it just hit me I have been training at this Dojo for 5 yrs! I really should not judge or try to gauge my progress on a time table and just do it. On another note, yeah , no won’t I feel so comfortable with some of the people at the dojo and them with me.
I was going to get some where with all this , but the shouchu has kicked, and L Z was just here in my studio, talking about perhaps moving to another apt, instead of this house. Sigh, impermanence is life.
I have pretty much succeeded with my goals with the shakuhachi. At the least the main part of it and connecting with my Ch’an training. Next it is just a matter of continued practice and improving. Shakuhachi, has ranks “dans” like kyudo, judo, karate, etc. I am not interested in getting one. I have no desire to teach, my Sensei although well-known does’ not have a masters “rank” title, either. My goals for playing now, are just to play better.
I have to keep that in my head with Kyudo, it is not about the destination, the prize. It is about shooting well. Playing as A Komuso is not about collecting donations, but playing well for the people, making the connection Heart to heart. Shooting the ya with the “right” spirit. The “right” is a Buddhist term, “the right”, something is a board term. For Kyudo it would mean, mind, body, breath and heart aligned.
My blog has been quiet about Kyudo, for a while. Not because I have stopped, but because I am just working at it. Not talking about working at it, working at it. Putting the effort into the action not the words. What a world we would have if that was more common. It is the Ch’an, do, don’t talk, experience the moment (s).
This brings me to a brief side thought. I have heard about a Kyudoka in more Northern Japan, who is a Shakuhachi maker an ones Kyudo. It would be interesting in hearing him speak on his views of the two arts. I have my friend an sempai who does Kyudo and plays Shakuhachi, but have never gotten a sense that he had a spiritual thought with either. Once I asked him about a connection, he touched a bit on breath harmony. The is another Kyudo Sensei there who also plays Shakuhachi and is a Sensei in Shorinyu Karate. He is a very serious type. Sometime I do not think he likes me. However he has offered help and correction from out of nowhere. He does not speak English at all, still I may try to engage him about Kyudo an Shakuhachi. What are his philosophical thoughts about them. Maybe I could figure out some of what he had to say, if anything. With visiting the maker, player, my wife would be there to translate. At the Kyudojo, I am on my own. Most people there from the way they talk to me think my Japanese is better than it is. Hahaha. It is more helpful for me I think to try to figure out what is being said, than to stop the conversation and bog it down with me tying to understand.