The hardest part of right now, is the stillness. Kind of like being on the boat, waiting for wind. Can not use the motor because not enough fuel to get anywhere so all one can do is wait for the wind. This is how I feel now. I want to do something to move forward but can not. I really really want to get on with Kyudo study. However, no Yumi, no ya, no glove, no Gi. I figured I could go outside to practice with the gomuyumi, and do some Tai Hai, however with the rain, which I love, the ground is wet, and the apt too small for me to practice any physical art.
I have been doing some free style practice on the Bass to get my chops up. Also some reading. I just finished a great ( to me ) book called the Chronicles of Tao , the secret life of a Taoist. The only book other than the Kyuhon saved from the boat. So much of the Taoist philosophy is in Chan it rings bells with my spirit. Also reading about the variation of this person life from the mountain temple to the everyday world and his blending and straying from the path and returning is a real perspective on living in good and bad times, perseverance and strength in the face of unpleasant conditions and survival.
I will need to get out soon. I have been shut in with others for too long.
I have been getting some Zazen time in but, it is not enough, and really is still more stillness. I think tomorrow I will go out, rain or shine, dry ground or wet. Even if it is just out here in the back area behind the Condo. There is a small open space , among trees and other greenery. It looks inviting.
There is also a little park at the next door apt complex which is even more appealing. With a little walk there is the big park around the corner, where the is , or was the Group Tai Chi practice. I have not worked up to the early morning rise yet, but that too is coming soon.
Meanwhile, I guess it is time to dive into Kyudo reading the Kyuhon and some other Kyudo reading I have gathered and not had the time to read.
We are off to an Izakaya tonight. Yay! This is a favorite one from the hood, but they had to move due to the mall remodeling. We are off to the new location tonight, Okasan is treating,